Hope it works.

Yea, that's all. Sorry for the anticlimax.



It's exactly one week since I last blogged.

I promised to blog once I got over my examinations/assignments, but the truth is they will never end. In fact, the moments I were in a pro-blogging mood tend to be the same as the times when I was stressed/depressed/rejected/confused/worthless/insert-negative-adjectives.

And to be honest, even the happiest people have insecurities in their life, even if it's only a modicum. It's just that we don't seem to show it off. Trust me, we still need to vent at times.

By the way, I like to vent by talking to people about themselves. *hint* *hint*

Another reason why I haven't been blogging is because each time I start to write something, I do not feel that the post did any justice. It's like it seemed so darned imperfect. And to a near-perfectionist, it's not even close to being acceptable. Imagine wasting hours on something that will just go down the drain. [Insert Miss Winnee's cries of frustration when her students give her the WTF look.]

Perfectionism is sometimes a good thing; it helps us strive for something better and bigger than ourselves. And even if we do not hit the target right on mark, we still do better than if we just do things like-that-la. At other times, it's a curse. We make ourselves the toughest critic. We settle for NOTHING except the best

What's wrong with NOT being the best anyway?

Sometimes we just gotta learn the hard way that no matter what, we will only be imperfectly perfect. So, why not if we try to be perfectly imperfect instead?

If you have never tried it, take heed: it's just as difficult.

Oh sheesh, I don't know how to end this post.

Tempted to delete this whole load.

Oh crap, goodnite people.

P.S.: I lost my car keys in Mid Valley today. Luckily my car was at PS's place. Just want to record my thanks to Ju who sent me back to pick up my spares. I feel sorry for the guy who is walking in the Mid Valley carpark pressing the button and listening for the beep.

P.P.S.: I'm neglecting several people in my life now when I know I shouldn't. Just know that I still love you peeps!

A Wee Bit Longer

I want to update my blog, BUT seriously I need to get my assignment done and study for mid terms.

So, please wait a wee bit longer.

And my computer is still slugging, so I switched to using my dad's lappie. Sorry dad.

8 Comless Days

Yea, haven't used the computer in 8 days.

Now I'm trying to get everything sorted but the stupid computer has registry issues. Bugger.

Will post a clearer update once I get this fixed.

And thanks to all the crazy readers who still visited the site everyday although there wasn't anything new.

Long time I haven't posted things in three-three-three. So here we go!

1. When I opened my email, I received a elearning alert showing this:

LOST SHEEP ! Urgent !
by Leonard Chua - Monday, 29 September 2008, 05:27 PM

Attention: Tutorial Group 1 Folks,


Group 2

Bavani (L)

Dita Anindya

Rathna Devi

Thean Su Vian


Hi, all the names mentioned above. I'm Leonard Chua and I happened to be your groupmate. *smile* I've been trying to hunt all y'all down but failed big time. Please get in-touch with me ASAP so that I can be enlightened with the status and progress of our group and assignments ya ? *wink*


kindly drop me an email @ chualeo@gmail.com or MSN me @ chua_leonard@hotmail.com 


Looking forward to working with you great people. Cheers ! *grin*




Truly Yours,


AHAHAHA. Talk about desperate measures. Well, at least you didn't need to resort to swear words like Sam. Visit Leonard here if you happen to be his teammate.

2. I believe in the power of group study.

That was a bit random but yea.

3. Had PSY 303 presentation today. Basically, we're supposed to present about ourselves for 2 minutes about basically anything in our lives. Since I went second, I guess there wasn't much to improve my presentation by since there wasn't any other comparison, but it didn't go that badly. Again I'm not so sure whether I was in-depth enough.

The amazing thing is that when people stood at the podium, they suddenly were able to self-disclose more than I would be able to. I began hearing about people's insecurities, fears, weaknesses, dreams, aspirations, and even broken pasts. There were married people with families, a person with a family with Thalassemia, people who were supressed in their family, people with fears from their schooldays, and even people experiencing deaths. Even though I was the optimistic type, I can't help but empathize with them, knowing how hard it can be to have to go through everything. Then when I look back at my life, I can't help thinking that my life is such a straight road compared to the mountains these people had to go through.

I'm not alone, I guess.

Thanks people, I'm really blessed.

And the rule of thumbs says this: DON'T LISTEN TO RUSSELL PETERS BEFORE ANY PRESENTATION. Yes, this means you Sam.

Min Huei.

Looking forward.

P.S.: Leaving to Penang in a few hours. Can't wait to get away!

P.S.S.: Looks like I'm 'winning' the poll. Stella Ho, you must be very happy now!

Means I'm going there and not expecting to be disturbed, anytime, anyhow, anywhat.

Yea. I decided that I really needed a break to think about myself, my life and the people around me. I'll be gone from September 28th 11.59pm (Monday) - October 4th 11.59pm (Saturday)

I'll try to get things done before I leave, so YOU won't need to worry about ME not doing work.

Thanks JuJu and SabSab for being my host for the trip. If anyone would like to sponsor me in any way, I'll promise to mention your business/name/blog/dog/whatever-you-want to the people I meet there.

And if you have any purchase requests, better tell me BEFORE I leave, because I'll resist from picking calls there.

Reminder to self: 
5th October - Mike Connell and Camp Thanksgiving Party. 

Short Message

Happy B'day VIC 'N' ZION.

Hope no one had stomach ache so far.

Will update soon.

The Goth Flashback

Was looking through my old blog and found these two pictures. This is a clear proof of my excellent UBERLEETNESS photoshopping skills. I present to you, Min Huei Goth and Stella Goth!

And YES you are able to vote on your right on who looks uglier. Amazing, isn't it?

Blogger really has issues with happy people. :D

Sorry for slugging too much, will continue the AHA Moment series soon.

For now, I shall reveal, my personality:

Looking back on things, I think my elder sister is also a Sanguine. I think both of us are the only people who can sit together and spontaneously combust in laughter for no apparent reason.

Take the test here. And if you've got time, visit Mae the Machine (for a Choleric example).

Also, today I finally was able to start piano classes again, despite the fact that my dad stopped me from learning when I was still small on the basis of piano playing being feminine (don't ask). To get the services of my sisters' ex-teacher, I had to go as far as Cheras for private lessons, but every moment is worth every cent. Although I know it's gonna require lots of hard work and commitment with having to juggle between this and school work and other events, I'm sure that I will be getting lots of fun with this.

20-year-old Grade 1 student.....


Blog Breakthrough

Congratulations, I have just made my first income as a blogger:

25 cents.

The amount may not be much, but it signifies an exciting start to this blogging experience. 

Thanks readers!

I'm so glad that I have so many Lukes in my life, although I also have a fair share of Demases.

I also know that I'm a Demas to some people, but I really want to find who I can be a Luke to.

Because your Lukes in your life may not be your Pauls.



Min Huei.


I found the answer.

Idea of Intimacy
Half 2 of 2

I'm sorry for all the things I've done or said which was of not good heart. I'm sorry for all the things I should have said and done, but have not. It is my dearest wish to tell everyone that it is not my motive to be like this. I am, indeed, still growing and learning.

Please do not take offense by any slip of tongue, any misperceived attitudes. Please do not judge me, while I try not to judge others too.

I can only hope that I have not scarred you deeply, for as I learned today: the scars of the spirit can always be healed but the scar of relationships may last forever.

Forgive me of my insolence.

You know who you are. All of you know who you are.

Your calculated life expectancy is 87 years.

Dr. Hera in CF = WOOT WOOT WOOT!

Part 3 will be short.

Idea of Intimacy
First half (That's why it's short.)

You are surrounded by people you know, at least by name, and probably a little by interests and backgrounds.

Yet your table is empty, every single person seemed to have joined another other person, leaving you alone on a solitary island.

It's alike an extrovert being ostracized - mentally torturous and emotionally challenging.

You try to reach out into another island, yet you never seem to be able to get much close, only a short glimpse of a fading image.

You turn to another to receive the same results.

It's paradoxical - having so many friends, yet having none.

Looking back at the past, this isn't the first time it has happened. In fact, you'd almost think you're a leper.


I don't know the answer. I'm still searching for it.

When I find it, the second half will begin. Wish me luck.

Melancholically Sanguine
Min Huei

I am a...

Dynamic Thinkers are confident and independent persons. They radiate enthusiasm and energy. Dynamic Thinkers pursue their objectives actively and energetically. They love nothing better than new challenges. This type is the born leader, competent, energetic and responsible. They have a sharp eye for errors and can criticise without mercy if they see the success of a project endangered. They are completely unconcerned as to whether they alienate anyone in the process. But they are always open to objective arguments; they love discussions, they are very gifted rhetorically and they are good at convincing and enthusing others.Dynamic Thinker

As they are very sociable, Dynamic Thinkers like to have a lot of friends around them, preferably those with whom they can share their interests and discuss all sorts of subjects. They are very direct but never in an underhand or scheming manner. If you can bear being spoken to frankly, you have in them a loyal and unwavering advisor as friend. Everything new and unknown stimulates Dynamic Thinkers and awakens their curiosity. However, rules, routine and traditional things arouse their resistance. If something does not go the way they want it to, they can react rather pigheadedly and obstinately.

Dynamic Thinkers expect a great deal of themselves and of others. Whoever does not fit in with their scheme of things does not have it easy. They sometimes appear to be rather severe due to their frankness. Partners and family also find it difficult to satisfy Dynamic Thinkers. They know exactly what they want and compromising is inconceivable to them. Whoever has an Dynamic Thinker as partner should have a strong personality and have a great deal of independence and sufficient self-confidence in order to give this dominating type some opposition. Normally, for Dynamic Thinkers, a partnership only takes second place after their profession. But they like to have someone at their side who is a match for them intellectually, with whom they can pursue mutual objectives and have interesting discussions all night long; preferably factual discussions - sentimentalism and romance are not their thing. 

You can take the test here: http://www.ipersonic.com/test.html

Min Huei's AHA Moment #2

Just got back from HUC CF Camp yesterday and I was really blessed by the amazing experience and the many lessons that I've learnt. I really want to thank the organizers, the participants and most importantly, God, for surprising me beyond my expectations.

Finally I have time to sit down and type out part 2 of this amazing series. Hope you liked part 1 as much as I enjoyed typing it out.

Today I shall talk about

Reading Life

Each person's life story is like a book. When you meet someone new, and you start learning about the person, you are actually reading chapter 1 of the person's story. However, chapter 1 is only the surface of the person's life. If you do continue to be friends and spend quality time together, you'll start going deeper into the person's book and learn more about the person's past experiences, future hopes, desired relationships and wishful expectations. The more you read a person's life story, the closer your relationship tend to be with the person. 

However, there is always a catch when it comes to reading. For one, it is not a sure thing that you will be able to remember exactly what happened in chapter 1 after some time. Thus, you have to go back and read from the beginning again. Some people never get past chapter 1 because of this. Some people are a little more fortunate when they only need a little prompting to remember everything.

Another problem is this: with over 6 billion books to read in the world, how do you know which books to choose? With limited memory, a person should only be able to juggle between 10-50 books of which about 5-10 have been read deeply. This brings us to the horrible truth: you cannot be close friends with everyone. But it doesn't give you any reason not to keep in touch with each other!

The third problem is that a person's book is never completed till the person is dead. This means that you have got to keep reading the books you have commited to because chapter 1 might change at any given moment. This also complicates matters when we are trying to juggle between the other books. Even in death, the person's book can never be read perfectly, because the only person to be able to read everything is the person him or herself.

The last, and hopefully most obvious, problem is this: you can only read a person's book if he or she permits you to. Some people can be read to a certain point, after which you find that it is impossible to turn to the next page, or that if you do turn the pages you find the words to be blurred, blackened and visually unreadable. People can close their books over you for many reasons: insecurity, lack of trust or even miscommunication. Sometimes the person him or herself would not even know why it happens.

Reading life is exciting, and if you are like any other human being who needs relational experiences, you want to be part of the book that the person is writing. You want both of your stories to be intertwined and connected, like a huge web. It takes a lot of effort to keep the web strong and secure, so learn to read the stories of life. Most importantly, learn to open your book to yourself, not being afraid of what people think of you. Because if you do so, you'd only be yourself.

You'd be you.

Min Huei's AHA Moment #1

Fact: Min Huei never goes AHA. He goes WOOOAAARGHHHHHHH while attempting to retrieve the pack of Sam's wantan noodles from the road.

Welcome to the beginning of the series of short, power-packed lessons that I will be blogging about. Basically, I'm just writing about the things that I noticed in my daily life and hopefully you can use such experiences to become a better person.

Today I shall be writing about:

Talking Dynamics

Almost 90% of the time you spend with your friends involves chatting with each other. However, the process of talking is quite complex, and will affect what your friends will think , feel and act towards you. Thus, it is important to understand the hots and the nots of chatting.

Basically, there are 3 things you can talk about when you're with your friends:

1. Work/Studies
You talk about your assignments and how much you have already finished or not finished. You talk about your lecturers and you gossip about other classmates. The truth is this: NOBODY LIKES TO TALK ABOUT THIS (exceptions during assignment seasons and group discusssions). Why is that? If you talk too much about work/studies, people will think you're some lifeless idiot trying too hard to prove yourself and that you might be exploiting them. If you brag too much (conscious or unconsciously) about your achievements, people will think you're some stuck-up loser.

2. The World and Its Constructs
Basically you can also talk about worldly issues, fashion, music, video games, and basically anything general. There's nothing wrong with exchanging opinions with your friends about what's happening around the world, but if you do it too much, people will think that you're trying too hard to impress others with your knowledge. People do not like know-it-alls. Sometimes, knowledge suppression is a more humble act.

3. People
Which means you talk about yourself and the person/people you're talking to. And I'm not only referring to your favorite color and your interests but more of your past history and your dreams and visions of the future. This is the number 1 thing many people cannot talk about. Perhaps they fear that whatever they reveal about themselves will be used against them in the future. But believe me, PEOPLE WANT TO KNOW THE PERSON THEY ARE TALKING TO (and not just your name, mind you). So, self disclosure is an important tool people need to learn to utilize. 

People don't care how much you know till they know how much you care.

People will become close friends with others that talk about the same things that they do. For example, if you talk about work a lot, you tend to become close friends with those that are work-oriented too but not so close with people-oriented friends. However, closest/best friends only can be made when you're a people-oriented person. So if you don't have a best friend yet, you might be talking about the wrong things at the wrong times with people. 

Hope this helps your friendships grow stronger every day!


Google Chrome


To learn about why Google Chrome was built, read this.

It will take a day or so to get used to, but by the time you get into the flow of things, this web browser will be your favourite hands down!


Infinitas = Unboundness

The concept of infinity is flawless.

It is unlike the concept of unlimited. Unlimited carries the meaning 'limitless'. Infinity is 'unending'. Thus, unlimited hot dogs mean you may eat hot dogs for the rest of your life and still not finish them all. Infinite hot dogs, however, mean that at present time there is a number of hot dogs which is too much to be imagined or observed.

Because human are bound by mental limitations, we can never fully grasp exactly how big/small infinity is. The only thing we could do is represent the idea using the famous symbol above.

Technically, everyone has an infinite choices of what to do next.

The biggest flaw is that we don't have the infinite time to do them all, due to our finite lifespan.

Come to EMERGE 2008 tomorrow and see how to release that potential in YOU.

Waiting Helps

Sorry I couldn't blog as often as I would like to.

I promise I will have a long picture post that you will wish I have not started.

Till then, toodles.

Sports Nationalism

LD won LCW.

'Tis sad.

I don't blame LCW for a nation who prefers to watch EPL then give unwarranted support to their MFC.

I think our country lack nationalism.

I don't know who to blame, the government or the people. Maybe I'll blame both.

'Tis sad.

Nothing's Wrong

No, I'm not going through a difficult period or anything like that whatsoever. Some people who have been reading my MSN display message and my previous blog post have been asking me whether I'm okay.

I'm okay.

That's all you need to know unless you ask me more.

Going to Malacca today for a food trip, so if you want something from there, gimme a call/SMS.

And if you still haven't heard, I LOST ALL MY PHONE CONTACTS. So, send me yours immediately (and tell me who you are- lah).


The hardest challenge in life is not about making the right choices. I mean, sometimes choices are so scripted because people are in a way coded to choose either mostly good or mostly bad choices. But what happens when there are no good choices to start with? What happens when every option we have ends up with something nasty or end up conflicting with our moral principles? Most people get confused and try to escape from making any decision. But these type of encounters haunt you till you decide. You can never run away forever.

And you choose the bad choice (since there weren't any good ones to start with).

And somehow you try to keep your world around you from falling down. You try to console yourself and keep yourself positively minded, even though it might be faked. Guilt seeps in, paralyzing you from taking any further step of improvement. You start thinking that it had always been your fault.

Life is interesting.

Yes, you've fallen in a pit. But it doesn't mean you can't get back out. You'd only failed once you tell yourself that you have lost. Be a fast learner, and learn from your mistakes. Make your weaknesses your strengths. Be a conqueror.

1. This decision will affect your life. Pick one.
A. Bad choice
B. Bad choice
C. Bad choice
D. Bad choice

Look at it this way:

1. This decision will affect your life. Pick one.
A. Bad choice
B. Better choice
C. Bad choice
D. Bad choice

Life looks brighter already, huh?

When things seem upside down, turn yourself upside down too. Things will look up again.

People who fail only make bad choices.
People who succeed only make good choices.
People who survive make good and bad choices.
However, people who change the world make bad choices and change that bad choice into a good one.

"The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore all progress depends on the unreasonable man." George Bernard Shaw

P.S.: Sorry bout this long rant-like post. Just feel like crapping.













Please insert [EAT SLEEP PLAY] between each entry.

That's life.

Still Sick



The GRACE Community Centre right outside my house was on fire today (might still probably be as I type this). No one's got a clue what happened, although we can only be sure after the fire's been put out and the cause of the fire is determined.

And all of this happened right as my friends and I were talking at my front gate.

I am also honored to be able to say that I called the fire brigade. After being stunned for a few seconds in case I actually am seeing a BBQ or something. And Instead of being overly busybody, I decided to blog about it. Heck, I didn't even bother taking a picture 'cause I'm not the kind of person to make something seem too chaotic.


Yea, there's gonna be a Japanese male student staying at my place for 3 weeks.

Appointment booking starts now.

Midway Point

People always stop you when you are getting to the best part.

Life sux.

Facebook For Dummies

To those of you who are less lifeless than me to use Facebook, I just created one.

Not to use it, but rather to make people continually hope that I would one day add them as a friend.

Like I have nothing else better to do with my time that to sit down in front of the computer and look at digital representations of another person, as if.



Sluggy Freelance

Welcome to HELP's-rotting-carcasses-of-doom.

July 20, 2008

To those who are still loyal enough (or lifeless enough) to check this blog, I'm still alive.

And I'm not interning during the holidays due to personal preferences. Let's just say I want to 'explore to the fullest my creative potential'.

Lately my computer seemed to give me a lot of headache so I had to reformat it. Might be a reason why I can't use Messenger properly.

Will update soon.


Come see them this Thursday.

Just leave a message here and I'll provide everything you need: transport and food.



This is a courtesy message of Min-Huei-Idiotically-Overwritten-His-File-But-Recovered-Part-Of-It.

HAHA Advertisement


Just wanna say that tomorrow I will be launching a series called "Realism Defined". I'll leave it to you to think about that. Till then.


I really need someone who likes it too.

My spectacles detached a few days ago, and immediately I felt that sense of helplessness, insecurity, fear, dread, and pain. Although I had spares around, they weren't the same as the ones I was already used to. They were different. And after a flicker of a moment, I was a different person, my personality so transformed by a single entity: the spectacles.

We wear many masks throughout our life. The question to ask is not how many masks we are able to don. The question is do we have a true face behind all that masquerade? When something happens and all that disguise is tripped away, what are we left with? Are we just a cold empty shell? Or do we really have our true selves hidden away?

You live in an average family, brought up with an average lifestyle, go to an average school, score average results, make friends with average peers, have average amounts of stress, graduate with an average certification, get pay averagely to do an average job, fall in love with an average person, get married and grow average children. All the time being happy.

But, at those rare moments in time, when the world seems to stop around you, you start to look at others. Those better off in richer families. Those suffering in families in poverty. Those people who are more successful than you. Those people who try with all their heart but never got a chance to succeed. Than you ask yourself: Is he world a fair place? For a moment you reflect on your life, you wonder what went wrong and what went right. Then in a blur of a moment, the world moves into motion again, and your thoughts are swept away, never to be mentioned till the next fleeting moment.

Sometimes it visits us again. Sometimes it never. And it has always been a graceful game of choice. There is no forced decision. Yes, there might be greener pastures on this side of the fence, but it is still up to you. Despite what the world claims, turning around to the other side does not make you a stupid, idiotic, irrational person. Just because you exercised your freedom, suddenly everything else around you falls, rots and repels itself of you.

But you knew. You knew that you have made the right choice. You know that the path you take will lead you to places that can touch the heart, the mind, the body, the soul. Places that can make you cry out of joy, out of love, out of enjoyment.

No matter where you go, there will be people around you. And when you try to meet expectations again, you naturally start to wear your mask again, forgetting about the true meaning behind every stage. And all is forgotten.

Till you wear the repaired spectacles again, you know that the experience will be different. But you know that this is what you want. This is what kept you going all these years. And you will be willing to sacrifice all you have for everything that you believe in.

Never letting anyone step on it, condemn it, deface it.

Never lose that passion.

As usual I left the last as promise.

Apparently, the only way to get people to visit your blog is to post ugly pictures of other people. I mean, what happened to the good-ol'-blog-about-something-useful tactic? So not working. People seemed to be more entertained, or 'informed' when they can laugh the hell out of distorted images of their close friends.

This, however, is my personal favorite:


I'm wicked.

The truth will set you free.

Extracted from David Icke's Infinite Love is The Only Truth, Everything Else is Illusion. You can read the entire book here.

The Bible, when portrayed as the actual word of God, is the most destructive book on earth. The literal rather than symbolic interpretation, no matter how contradictory, leaves no room for independent thought or reappraisal in the light of new understanding. It is a sheep pen for the mind. There is no question, no discussion, no debate. The religion dictates what is and what isn't and that's all you need to know. The sight of soldiers praying to God and asking Jesus for support
before battles of mass murder in Iraq reveals a level of contradiction, self-delusion and childlike naivety that beggars belief. I also cringe when I see sports people crossing their chests and asking Jesus to help them win. What has he got against their opposition then? An England rugby captain said when appointed that he had always believed this was what the Lord had planned for him. I am sure Jesus thought of nothing else. 'Say, Dad, we need a new England rugby captain, but leave it to me, I've got just the bloke.' And God saw that it was good.

Fastest Secretary


1. Broken spectacles.

2. Broken thumbnail.

Can anything get worst? No seriously I dare it to come, 'cause you don't scare me!

What's with the title? Just wanna say that I'm gonna keep my head wrapped up tomorrow. Will update about it tomorrow. Till then.

This is the sequel to this.

Exodus 20: 13/Deuteronomy 5: 17
You shall not murder.

Legal Definition
The act of killing a person with the state of mind of intentional, purposeful, malicious, premeditated, and/or wanton.

Killing is deemed wrong because it involves taking away something that belongs to someone else.

Okay, this is the big question:

Is killing wrong?

Huh? Is this some sort of trick question or something? Seriously. Is killing absolutely wrong regardless of situation and circumstances? It is akin asking the question "Is lying wrong?" Wait a minute, killing is definitely more socially unacceptable compared to lying, right? How can we compare this two dissimilar acts together?

Let's unravel 3 situations together:

1. The Fascist Ruler
You are a citizen under the ruling power of a fascist leader. The ruler governs with an iron fist, suppressing individual freedom and controlling mass media to an extent where people are brainwashed to fear, to blindly follow, and most importantly, to become mindless automatons with only one purpose: to become subtle slaves of the government. There is, however, one man whose only objective is to bring down the government so that the people can be free again. There is one catch: he is killing people. You have just discovered this person.

What do you do? Do you report this person to the authorities or turn a blind eye?

Try watching 'V for Vendetta'.

2. The Lifeboat Dilemma
You are tied to a train track and the train is racing towards you. You have a choice. You may pull a lever located beside you to divert the train onto another parallel track. Unfortunately, your wife is tied onto the other track.

What do you do? Do you pull the lever and kill your wife or do nothing and kill yourself?


3. Psychotics
You are locked in a cell with two of your best friends. All of you are left in the cell without food and water for three days. In the midst of becoming psychological unstable from the lack of resources, the mysterious kidnapper drops a knife into the room with a message attached: "Only two of you will live, one of you must die." You are the only person to have noticed the note.

What do you do? Do you show the message to the rest? Do you kill anyone? (Remember you are mentally unstable due to lack of resources.)

Try watching 'North Mammon', Criminal Minds, Episode 29, Season 2.

Based on the three situations given, would you change your mind on the justification of killing? Although those situations might not be the most common scenarios, they are the few of the morally difficult ones. There are many others that might be more naturally occurring in people's conversations. For example, are holy wars considered justified? How about the Iraq war? Should capital punishment be abolished?

How do we draw the line?

Does the line even exists to start with?



Just to show you that I can do it. Again.

Min Huei, get a life!


I can't believe I finished it. I officially completed the world's most difficult quiz. Ever.

If you have the patience, go ahead:


Stop Shaking

1. If you shake younger babies too vigorously, they will grow up to have mushier brains.

2. Shaking your legs does not make you lose money, like the old wives tales say. Instead, you can burn as much calories as taking a slow walk, whilst irritating people who are sitting on the same conjoined chair as you.

..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... .....


Just A Step Away

Chick Lit

Like, what's wrong with guys reading chick lit? Is it some form of social taboo or something? What are we supposed to read then? Car Maintenance for Dummies?

Seriously. Could people be any more daft than that.

If there is a God, He is infinitely incomprehensible, since, having neither parts nor limits, He has no affinity to us. We are then incapable of knowing either what He is or if He is....

..."God is, or He is not." But to which side shall we incline? Reason can decide nothing here. There is an infinite chaos which separated us. A game is being played at the extremity of this infinite distance where heads or tails will turn up. What will you wager? According to reason, you can do neither the one thing nor the other; according to reason, you can defend neither of the propositions.

Do not, then, reprove for error those who have made a choice; for you know nothing about it. "No, but I blame them for having made, not this choice, but a choice; for again both he who chooses heads and he who chooses tails are equally at fault, they are both in the wrong. The true course is not to wager at all."

Yes; but you must wager. It is not optional. You are embarked. Which will you choose then? Let us see. Since you must choose, let us see which interests you least. You have two things to lose, the true and the good; and two things to stake, your reason and your will, your knowledge and your happiness; and your nature has two things to shun, error and misery. Your reason is no more shocked in choosing one rather than the other, since you must of necessity choose. This is one point settled. But your happiness? Let us weigh the gain and the loss in wagering that God is. Let us estimate these two chances. If you gain, you gain all; if you lose, you lose nothing. Wager, then, without hesitation that He is.

"That is very fine. Yes, I must wager; but I may perhaps wager too much." Let us see. Since there is an equal risk of gain and of loss, if you had only to gain two lives, instead of one, you might still wager. But if there were three lives to gain, you would have to play (since you are under the necessity of playing), and you would be imprudent, when you are forced to play, not to chance your life to gain three at a game where there is an equal risk of loss and gain. But there is an eternity of life and happiness. And this being so, if there were an infinity of chances, of which one only would be for you, you would still be right in wagering one to win two, and you would act stupidly, being obliged to play, by refusing to stake one life against three at a game in which out of an infinity of chances there is one for you, if there were an infinity of an infinitely happy life to gain. But there is here an infinity of an infinitely happy life to gain, a chance of gain against a finite number of chances of loss, and what you stake is finite.

Blaise Pascal (1623 - 1662)

This views are subjective and does not express or imply the current situations of any known churches or its members.

Many churches are progressing towards building a church without walls, a church that steps out from the comfortable spaces of the Christian community to be able to step out and influence the world they live in. However, there is one problem that can be often missed; although we might be breaking the walls on the outside of th church, we silently build walls within the church, within ministry.

Ministry has three primary objectives:

1. To Fulfill the Great Commandment
Matthew 22: 37-38 Jesus said to him, “ ‘You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.’ This is the first and great commandment.

People active in ministries need to serve primarily out of their love towards God. Ministry is one of the ways we can express our love for God, but it is not the only. In fact, the only way to be joyfully effective in ministry in through God's anointing and grace, and no amount of hard work and discipline can replace that. That is why we need to ensure that the people in ministry are always walking with God.

General tip: Pray. A lot. And read the living word.

2. To Fulfill the Great Commission
Matthew 22: 39 And the second is like it: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’

Regardless of focus, each ministry must not fail to continually love each other. Duty or responsibilities must not precede this. In reality, it is really easy to forget that the people we work with, the people we meet everyday and even the people we have yet to know are still human beings like us. They still have feelings and emotions and are subject to personal biases. They still want to feel loved. Some people go by the saying, "If you love a person enough, you will tell them the truth even if it hurts." However, this only applies to those who are close enough to you. Ministries are also becoming more and more isolated the same way cell groups are; members only mixing within the ministry. How is it possible to have a church without walls if we fail to look beyond our task differences? Ministries are also becoming hierarchical. This is not necessarily a bad thing, but sometimes we think we are unworthy of doing the smaller things or we think others to be unworthy to do the bigger things.

General tip: Don't stereotype and be friendly ALL the time. It never hurts to smile.

3. To Fulfill the Cultural Mandate
Genesis 1: 28 Then God blessed them, and God said to them, “Be fruitful and multiply; fill the earth and subdue it; have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and over every living thing that moves on the earth.”

Lastly, ministry serves to provide a relevant platform for us to reach out to the lost world; providing a helpful hand in time of need, a beacon of hope in trying times and a honorary example in all fields. When we are in ministry, we are showing the world how walking with God can be like. Can it be fun? Can it be life-changing? Can it be something even a normal person can try? Ministry shows the world that even ordinary beings can do extraordinary things. Sometimes, we get so involved in the responsibilities of ministry that we forget about loving God and loving people. Always focus on loving God first, then people, then only do you get the task done. If you somehow hurt or offended someone in the middle of ministry, stop. Tend to the person in need, then continue (Matthew 5: 23-24). If your job involves rebuking someone, it doesn't mean you have to do it in a bad way. Be sensitive to others. Never, ever have this mentality: "I'm only doing my job."

General tip: Do the job well, after making sure you are still loving God and people righteously.

Yes: THE OBJECTIVES OF MINISTRY IS THE SAME OF ANY OTHER ORDINARY MEMBER. The only difference is in terms of responsibilities. Yet, we sometimes act as if those responsibilities are exclusive, reserved for certain special people, providing us with certain special benefits are protections.

Let's not live it this way.

Let's break down the walls.


The only thing holding him back is the recording capabilities of the video camera.

Let's Think About It...

Where would Dubai be without oil?









Buggy Motivator


Min Huei: Hey, wanna jog together tomorrow?
[Insert Person Here]: What time?
Min Huei: 6 a.m..
[Insert Person Here]: Go and die la!


Tell Him

Before this is forgotten, let's remember.


4.00 a.m. - Sleep, hoping to pay off the huge sleep debt.

7.30 a.m. - Wake up naturally without alarm.

Stupid circadian rhythm.

Old Passion

5. Malices (Singular, Malice)
20 years ago in the world of Tarot, evil was released into the world through a portal. That was when Malices were spawned. Most of them took the path of evil, but others hid and formed a unique race after the portal was closed, living among orks and dwarves.
They are demon-like creatures looking like liches. Around their face-part of their heads, they have tentacles running towards the rear base of their necks. They do not have eyeballs. Their nasal and mouth areas are bone-based and hard. They have nose slits and trapezium-shaped mouths that never close. Their tongues are long, stiff and able to cover their mouth openings. They have exoskeleton coverings on most parts of their bodies. Their hearts are located exactly in the centre of their bodies. They have sharp protruding bones sticking out of their heels. Most Malices have black skeletons and red skin and flesh. Their skin is made of semi-permeable membranes. Their flesh is made of a constantly moving stiff gel.
Size: Medium
Base land speed: 30 ft.
+2 Wisdom, +2 Intelligence; Malices are bright and extremely inquisitive.
-2 Strength, -2 Dexterity; Malices are weak individuals and their exoskeleton areas obstruct movement.
-1 Racial Penalty to all skills requiring strength.
Soulsteal; Every time any opponent with blood is injured, Malices who are at least 10 feet from the opponent regains 1% of their total HP, rounded up. They gain at least 1 HP regardless of calculations.
Malices are not affected by illusions. They have the ability to perceive reality.
Malices are sensitive to bright light. In areas with bright light, their skeletons will meld to form a covering protecting their bodies. This ability is instantaneous and is activated even though they’re unconscious/stunned/etc. When covered in their exoskeletons, they lose all dexterity and armour bonuses to AC and gain +5 natural armour and magic damage reduction of (1 + Constitution Modifier)/level. They still retain magical armour bonuses. If somehow they are exposed to bright light and are unable to retract their protective exoskeleton, they lose 10 HP per minute. They cannot activate this ability when there is no brightness. They cannot act in their protective shells. The shell is instantaneously removed when the bright light dissipates.
Automatic Languages: Abyssal

LIKE WTH RIGHT!!! Good ol' days.

Semester 4

Semester 4 is officially over.


Time flew so fast, and at time I can barely catch up with it.

Then I was instructed to slow down.

And take in the scenery.

You might reach the end slower.

But the journey will be sweeter.

Thanks peeps!

Semester 5, bring it on!

The world is in chaos. In 30 minutes time, an atomic bomb will hit the area you live in. There is no time for escape and no where to hide. However, the government has build several vaults around the country which will protect people from the blast. Vault 18 has just enough room and food for 6 people to live in for 10 years, but there is 10 people who is on the list. The vault will only be opened after 10 years. The supervisor of the vault has to pick the 6 to be shortlisted to ensure the survival of mankind. You are the supervisor of vault 18.

This is the list of the 10 people:

1. A 19 year old gay professional violinist.
2. A 75 year old priest.
3. A 22 year old ex-prostitute.
4. A 35 year old female physician with past racial issues.
5. A 23 year old ex-militant with anger management problems. He owns a gun.
6. A 16 year old girl with delinquency issues and low IQ scores. She is pregnant.
7. A 40 year old African experienced male engineer with cancer.
8. A 12 year old boy with binge eating problems. He consumes 2 times the food of normal individuals.
9. A 20 year old female with mental depression and psychosis. Doctors say she has to be on continuous medication.
10. A 21 year old male who is the boyfriend of N0. 9. He strongly insists that he will not go into the vault without his girlfriend.

* All individuals are Caucasians unless dully noted.

Q1: Which 6 will you pick and why? (You MUST pick exactly 6.) (You have 30 minutes to decide, remember the bomb.)

Q2: If you were to be considered in the 6 people to be chosen, will you pick yourself? Why and why not?

1. You love God more than your partner. You have the unconditional love of God as the basis of your relationship and this will help to strengthen your bond.

2. Your partner does not belong to you. You belong to each other mutually without ownership.

3. You have faith in each other regardless of situations and circumstances.

Buying New Handphone?



First, look at this.

Compare that with this:

Intel Core 2 Quad Q9300 2.5 GHz
Gigabyte EP35-Ds3 Motherboard
2 X 2 GB Kingston PC800 RAM
250 GB Western Digital SATA HDD
20 X Pioneer DVD-RW SATA Drive
512 MB MSI 9600 GT (No toxic :O) (Better than the 3870 on multiple tests and ten times cheaper...)
Cooler Master Casing and Power
22" Wide Screen LG Monitor
Other peripherals

Getting it in the midst of exams. Happy me.

And whoever wants a new computer, buy it from ComputerWar. Seriously, you pay for what you get. No branding prices, no unnecessary customer services which you (usually) never will need.

And the weird thing is I don't think I'll even be maximizing the full potential of the new PC. I don't even play Crysis for goodness sake. At least I'm prepared when Fallout 3 comes. Bring it on!

Monkey See, Monkey Do

You are walking down a street.

Suddenly you notice someone.

"Hey, I know that person."

"Hmm, what was his name again?"

"Aha! I remember! He is ________"

"Should I say hi? Or wave?"

"But, I'm not exactly very close to him."

"He might think, 'Why in the world is this weird guy waving at me?'"

Suddenly he stares at you.

"Crap! I think he saw me. What am I supposed to do now?"

"Pretend not to notice him? Smile at him and wave? Walk in the opposite direction?"

"I know! I'll just wait for him to greet me and I'll do the same!"

Both walks closer.

"He hasn't noticed me yet."

Both pass each other.

"Is it safe to turn around yet? Better walk a little further just in case."

Walks some more before turning around. He isn't looking back. You turn around again.

"I guess he can't remember me anyway."




The other guy turns around.

"Shit, he doesn't remember me!"


The above scenario is a VERY COMMON situation many of us have already or will come across. If you are not aware of why it happens, you might feel naturally awkward. Be reminded that this is perfectly NORMAL and it happens more often than we think it will.

The truth is this:

People tend to assume that the other party will act first.
But they don't think that way about themselves.

Thus, both parties just ignore each other and start wondering why the other person is snobby/unfriendly/selfish/insert other forms of negative adjectives. Malaysians call it the "tidak-apa syndrome". Psychologists call it diffusion of responsibility and the fundamental attribution error. Chinese people call it "give face/bei min (my chinese suxxor)".

This doesn't mean that we can't do anything about it. It still boils down to a matter of choice. When you see someone you know by name, just say hi. I know it can sometimes be awkward (especially when they don't answer back or worse, give you the "who the %&#@ are you?" look), you'll be doing a favor to make this world a better place to live in.


Tomorrow, I'll be having a gathering at my house to celebrate my birthday at 8 pm. It's not a party, just a meet to chat with each other and catch up with everyone else. If you know me, call me to ask for directions/address. Or just call me at "8 1 6 4 3 2 2 7 1 0" in reverse (this is done to prevent phishers). Everyone is invited. I'm just too lazy to go through my phone book and email addresses. It doesn't mean I've forgotten about you.

15 Years Of Difference

What can happen in 15 years?

Case Study 1 - Mariah Carey



To be honest, I prefer young Mariah. She was profoundly touching when she started out her singing career and also more beautiful. At present, her image is the result of crass commercialization to modern values. And yes, I know abut the "Ken Lee" rage...

Case Study 2 - Celine Dion



Celine will always remain timeless with her voice. I feel that although her voice and style evolved with age, she remained true to her style and character. I feel sad that she is starting to lip-sync is some of her new concerts.

Case Study 3 - Whitney Houston



She was really, really angelic. I'm just happy that she got over her drug problem and is now on her journey back towards being a wonderful singer. And yes, Malaysians are crazy shouters.

My eyes are so tired and sore. It must be from all that crying. I don't see a problem with it, because it made me feel better.


April 7th - 5.30 p.m. - "Min Huei, Andrew Yap passed away."






2005 - Damansara Jaya Secondary School - I walk through the corridor wondering how my life as a secondary school student would end. I stare around, seeing people in the canteen eating and chatting away. I see groups studying for the big exam. I see groups sharing about their relationships with each other. I also see groups wondering around alone, living in their own world.

Then there was this one group.

They were the popular kids, the in-crowd.

But they weren't the stereotypical gang. They were genuinely attached to each other, knowing that they were going to be friends for life. And they treated anyone and everyone else with as much respect as possible.

Andrew was one of them.

Occasionally I would glance at them, and they would glance at me. And it ended there.






April 7th - 3.00 p.m. - "Good morning class. As we are ending the semester, we have come to a very interesting final lecture about death and dying."






April 2nd - 8.00 p.m. - Damansara Specialist Hospital - I see him lying on the bed in the ICU covered with bandages and tubes. I did not dare get closer in case I break down.






There was something magical about DJ. Although we might be part of different cliques, we still accepted each other as family, as part of the DJ bloodline. Andrew was a special kid lucky to have experience true friendship. Many of his close friends flew thousands of miles back just to pray for him. And although I may not know him at all and I may not be the person most fit to cry for him, I know that deep down I mourned sorrowfully. I mourned because I knew there was this special boy who made me understand how valuable life and love is.

Andrew, thank you.

Dedicated to those who needed that extra boost of faith and extra push from fear.

I still remembered the moment I received my SPM results. The journey back to school was long and arduous. There I was standing in line whilst listening to occasional cries of joy and screams of misery piercing the air. When I reached the table, my teacher pushed the slip into my hands, and I looked down, fearing the worst.

9 A1, 1 B3

I didn't know whether to be happy or sad. For a moment I leaned against the wall, wondering where my future would lie, wondering where I would end. Did this slip of paper in my hand really mean anything? I felt inferior, knowing there were many more who did better than me. But, I also felt bad for the many more who were not able to achieve a credible statement.

My parents wanted me to study law. They said that they know I was capable of making it to the top. They also said that the field of law is always filled with job opportunities and stability. My relatives had the same point of view.

I didn't.

I never knew exactly what I wanted to do. However, I knew what I didn't want to do.

I never liked business, nor law or accounting or IT or engineering. I like natural sciences and language as well as mass communication, but I didn't like them enough to justify them as my occupation. I knew I liked to know what happens in a person's mind.

So, I chose Psychology.

Mind you, it wasn't the option my parents were most supportive of. They were worried that people in this field were not able to get any jobs when they graduate. However, I made my decision. I chose my field of interest and I am very fortunate to be given the freedom to do so, knowing that there are youths who do not even have a choice when making tertiary educational choices.

It has been almost 2 and a half years since then.

I have learned so much from the many friends I have made over this period of time, but I have matured even more. I have been with them through great times and bad times, and the memories made are unforgetable. Most importantly, I found my true love, and my walk in life could have never been better than before. And I know now, that even before I came to know Him, He was with me. Always.


Passion kept me going. And I know that it was very important to keep the fire burning. I want to thank my friends who were there when I was on the brink of breaking down, helping me up, encouraging me along.

I still do not know exactly what I want to do in the future. I do not know if I ever will. What I do know is that I have never regretted any decisions I have made. Because I know that without those choices made, I would have never been what I am today.

I have almost come to the midway point in my tertiary education, and I have come a far, far way. Tomorrow, I will be presenting for my very first psychology colloqium. Things might not be perfect, and the path to get here was very tough, but I have to agree that the experience during the journey was priceless.

But I'm loving every second of it.

Thanks to You.

Newer Posts Older Posts Home